BLACK ROSES. Already?

Ever liked someone that you did not want, didn't plan to, or even never in a million years would you have looked at them in a different light that does not reflect "friends only?" people say that once you have decided that a boy is just your friend they are no longer a dating option. they become a complete non-sexual entity in a girl's eyes,like a brother - or a lamp. well i used to believe that, but i quickly realized u never really know what it's like until you are faced with a situation. sometimes i put myself in situations that i know are going to end bad or never happen at all, some things are worth it, you know like when i look back on things that made me smile they never stop making me smile, i guess what i'm trying to say is that you really never know what a situation is like until you are faced bey it. there is this feeling when you get, when there is this other person that you know thinks about you, and he lets you know. it is comforting to know that when all hell breaks loose there will always be that someone left. who won't judge you, who knows you, well this a great feeling and would even be better if you knew the feeling will last. i had my doubts when i put myself out there. my thinking is if i don't let my guard down, i don't have to get hurt. it's like if you stop betting then you really never have to lose. i usually have my walls up because my greatest fear is me being vulnerable. but in this situation the walls just came trembling down i spoke what i felt. Rev Run said that when an emotion is real it comes out involuntarily. and that is exactly what happened. i don't know what happened but i guess that person is not "that person" anymore. which got me questioning ... Black Roses already? the red rose is still alive. SMH.