"We Three (My Echo, My Shadow and Me)"

You know that feeling you get when you are looking forward to something so bad you can hardly contain yourself? well approximately seven weeks ago i had this vibrant feeling. I went to bed waiting for my alarm to go off and for it to be a new day. Its a great feeling when you wake up knowing it wasn't promised. Well back to this amazing feeling that i felt. I couldn't wait to see what i was looking forward to held in store for me. I expected everything to go exactly the way i had planned it in my head, exactly how it had happened in my dreams. But i was jolted back to reality with the fact that nothing happened the way i wanted it to. A feeling of disappointment ran through my entire being. And a puzzled look was plastered on my face. This feeling was like none i had ever felt before. It was even worse because for once in a long time i had thought that things were finally going to go my way and i was sure than no thing in this world would come in between but once again, i was wrong. i need someone to save me from my destiny. i know by now miasma of thoughts are criss-crossing your heat soaked brain wondering what i could be talking  about. That i will keep a secret, because if you know me  i am not the most open person about my feeling or thoughts. Its because once you reveal your true feelings to a person it makes you vulnerable and honestly the only person that i trust is myself because at the end of the day i am the only one who will be here for me. Believe me, I'm lying.