It's Not A Bird, It's Not A Plane. It's My Heart And It's Going.. Gone Away..

Beautiful Morning, She looks over and she sees her phone blinking. A new text message she supposes. She's hoping it's a certain someone. That someone who will probably plaster a smile on her face immediately. She reaches over for it and just like she had hoped, it did make her smile, not necessarily for what it read but more who it was from. You know sometimes sadness becomes such a big part of your life that you expect to always be there because you cannot remember a time in your life when it was not. But then one day you feel something else, which considers wrong, just because it’s so unknown. And in that moment you will see that you are happy.  “I am happy, I feel happy.” She whispers to herself as she jumps up and starts dancing. Her dancing is uncoordinated... all over the place, but she still has that smile on her face. She is not sure whether this will last long or if it will last at all. She hopes that it will last forever and a day. Cheesy?  Yes but that is what she hopes for. For a long time she had been hoping that things would work out the way they did and now that it has, she can’t help but smile. She wonders whether this is a mutual thing. She wonders whether she is in this solo or whether “they" are in it together. She hopes that they are in this together. A part of her knows that they are, the other part can’t help but wonder.  What if she is some part of a huge plan? What if hearts get broken? What if she doesn’t find what she is looking for? Is she looking for something in particular? You know every once in a while people step up, to rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes less. Life is funny sometimes, can push quite hard, but if you look close enough to find hope in the words of children, bar one song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you’re lucky, if you are the luckiest person on this entire planet the person you love decides to love you back. She isn’t the same person. She has new priorities now. She cares for someone. She likes someone. She puts this person before others. She is not afraid to tell the whole world but then again she is afraid that that my jinks the whole thing. She has been warned. But she won’t listen. She is getting herself into something that she hopes will build her and not break.  This is how she is feeling.  <3